I just got home and had an e-mail come through from the past, written almost 6 months ago, on January 05, 2014. delivered through FutureMe.org. I had completely forgotten I did this until it just came through. Past me must have thought this was a good idea, present-day me is pleased to have received such a nice message..
“Howdy, future Pippa…
You made it!! Tomorrow is your last working day in China and you’ll soon be at home among your best friends and family. I bet you’re so excited, I know how much you’ll be craving a cuddle from your beloved nieces by now, a “squish” from your mum and dad, a trip to the local chippy! It’s right around the corner so I hope you’ve started packing already!!! (If not, seriously dude you need to get a move on, that suitcase won’t pack itself and you have got a LOT of stuff you need to move back to the UK)
ANYWAY. What an incredible year you’ve had so far, at the time of writing you’re already halfway done(only just!) with your adventure and you can’t believe how quickly time is flying. You want to be a teacher, is that still true now? I hope you will still follow that dream because teaching feels like the first thing that really ‘fits’ you. I’ve never seen you so happy or fulfilled. Even though there’ll be a heavy workload as an NQT and the PGCE year will be challenging, GO FOR IT! You can do it.
A few days ago it was Chinese New Year and you made a wish which you then threw into a wishing tree. Do you remember? You wished for happiness for your family. I hope this wish came true. You’re worried about your Aunty right now, you hope she will pull through her battle with cancer. I’m sure while you’re reading this she is absolutely fine because she’s a fighter and she has a positive and warm attitude which radiates from every part of her being and this is how you know she’s going to be okay. When you read this, call her and tell her how much you love her. I hope you’ve been making a good effort to stay in touch! If not, shame on you Smith!!!
You also wished to find love this year. True love, or at least be closer to finding it. I don’t know what will be happening in approximately 6 months from now when this letter reaches your inbox. I’m not saying you’ll have magically met “the one” (if indeed such a person exists!) but this wish you made to find love is much deeper than it first appears. Although it would be wonderful if you’re by now madly in love with a gorgeous man who values you for exactly who you are and makes every day seem like Christmas… ALTHOUGH that’d be grand… just remember that as long as you’ve found love in the following ways you’re doing alright:
Do you love what you do?
Do you love what you HAVE done this year at BSG? Do you love waking up every morning knowing that you have direction? If you don’t feel this way then DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT!
Do you love yourself? Are you at that point yet, where you have realised your self worth? Because if you haven’t by now then you really should. YOU are in control of your own happiness and how can you ever expect to find someone to love you if you can’t love yourself??
Do you love the life you are living? Have you fallen deeper in love with travel? With places and people and cultures? Have you lived. I mean really LIVED, y’know?
Did you travel to the places you wanted to?
Did you grasp every opportunity with both hands?
Did you say YES?
Can you leave China feeling like you’ve gained a fabulous experience and are a different person to the girl who got on that plane on the 6th August 2013??
I hope that the answer is YES to all of the aforementioned questions. I also kinda hope you DO have a gorgeous hunk of a man on your arm, but if not then hey never mind – GIRL POWER!
That’s all really.
Lots of love from past you! xxx”
Past me was right, I definitely need to get my arse into gear with the packing, I AM super excited to see my family now, my Aunty is doing well, I DO still want to teach and the answer is a resounding YES but unfortunately there is no hunky man in my life!… If you want to send a message to your future self I highly recommend it :)